I'm sick I'm tired, I'm scared

I'm tired..tired of travelling..
travelling from Melaka to Kuala Lumpur to Changlon to Sintok and then back again to Changlon,
continue to Gurun back to Kuala Lumpur and finally back to Melaka.
we (read me and my fiance) spent two days in car and I'm starting to get a fever..

I'm sick and I'm tired..
but worst...
I'm scared..

I'm scared...
too scared to work in a new workplace..
too scared to look for new friends..
too scared to drive alone.

I'm scared...
too scared to start a new life...
too scared to be somebody's wife...
too scared to lead my own life.

I love here..
love staying in Melaka..
love working in UiTM (* UiTM dihatiku)
love staying with the housemates (*minus that invisible one)
 and best..
I love being single (*not married) and mingle around with the girls..

I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm scared..
but I dont dare to break her heart..
just because I love staying here..

I'm sick I'm tired, I'm scared..
but, mom..
I'll do everything you want me to do..
because my life is always yours..