UUM - 1st Semester

The 1st semester teaching in UUM.

My 1st experience teaching degree students.

My 1st experience teaching writing course.

My 1st experience teaching weak and passive students.

Set up 3 rules in all the 6 classes.

3R 

- Relax

- Respect

- RESPOND!!!!

I DON'T WANT to TALK to the WALL.

-  Did the thing that some of my friends hate the most; asked the same questions again and again.

- It worked. They responded. With words. *smile

1st Consultation day.

Found out these;

- a student who doesn't know what is "a sentence".

- a student who doesn't even know what are main ideas.

- a students who doesn't even know what is an introduction paragraph, what is a body paragraph.

I thought those are the basics in writing essays.

SHOCKED!!!

What should I do?

It's a challenge!!

Yes, I need to do something.

Improve my teaching style?

Maybe I'm too rigid.

Improve my teaching methods?

Yes, there will be more activities in class.

More tiring days?

What to do. I need to help them

Thank god I deferred my master's degree.

My Master's Degree??

I've been dreaming to have a master's degree since forever..

but when can I get one? 

Wanted to apply for ELS in UKM, but mommy gave me a big NO NO..

why?

 because my brother said I was a PTFT and I cant afford to do a master..ok, i put away that UKM application..

Applied for Applied Linguistics in USM and UUM..received the offers..

moved to a new workplace..

to busy to fit in..

and out of sudden, mommy said I'm going to get married this coming October..

there's too many things going on..

how can I afford to start my master this year..*crying

Deferred the offer from UUM..

and forced to reject the offer form USM as they didnt allow me to defer..

*sad 

Hummphh!! It's OK aini..belum masanya..

I still have time..

Berazamlah...

by hook or by crook, 

Aini bt. Ahmad MUST start her masters' degree next year..with or without scholarship..

it's a MUST!!

I MUST have my master's degree before the end of 2015..

Aja aja fighting!!!

My Busy Raya 2012

Eid 2012 is my busiest raya ever..
I was busy with everything..busy with the food..busy eating..hehehe.. busy with the kids, 
the guests, jalan-jalan raya, shopping..and last but not least..busy with mr. F (read mr. fiance)..hihi..

I was busy the whole 1st week of raya..


Eid - Day 1 (Sunday)

- went for sembahyang sunat raya with the family.
- served kuih raya and ketupat for the guests.
- watched brothers and nephews playing street fighter..from 11 am to 3 pm..
   well, i wanted to play..but we didnt have enough joystick.pity me..-_-'
- visited the relatives
- collected duit raya..hoho..still got duit raya though i've been working for a year..^^V



Eid - Day 2 ( Monday)

- mr. F and his family visited for raya..nebes layan bakal ibu..hoho..
- went to ayah's kampung to visit the uncles and aunties..and my 4-year-old nephew, zul peed in his pant and   refused to wear the pant borrowed to him..he stayed half-naked jalan-jalan raya..apalah kamu..hihi..



Eid - Day 3 ( Tuesday)

- went back to changloon..
- went to work a bit late..there's no one in the language centre..takut2..balik la..hoho..
- went to simpang 4 to pick mr. F.. had lunch with his family..his mom cooked nasi daging, my favourite..tapi sy malu mau makan banyak2..sob3..itu la padahnya pegi sorang2..tak malu btol..-_-'
- went to Alor Setar..mahu tempah baju melayu beliau dan kad kahwin...tp kedai suma tutup..pulang dgn tgn  
  kosong..sob3..
- begged him to send me home..too tired to drive alone..he drove me home and had dinner together before
  he went back to simpang 4..



Eid - Day 4 ( Wednesday)

- went to Padang Besar with mr. F..his mom wanted him to come home before 2.30 but we cant make it
  because i was too busy with shopping. I'm sorry auntie..jgn merajuk..bawak anak teruna orang ni bahaya
  btol..-_-'
- went to Hospital Jitra to ask about our HIV test..they dont do it in the hospital..need to go to pusat
   kesihatan..we decided to do it on Sunday.
- went to Cosy spa to ask about my wedding makeup..did the makeup test..cantik tapi kenapa muka sy
   tiba2 nampak mcm jalan raya x turap..isk3..kakak, sy bayar mahal tp kenapa barang mekap suma
   murahan..baik sy mekap sniri je...T___T



Eid - Day 5 ( Thursday)

- went to Sg. Petani with mr. F...bought chiffon for my selendang akad nikah and veil..
- met Erin and Anne at Butik Benard..discussed about my selendang..snapped pictures of my wedding
  dress..tp knape ade nama org lain kat dress tu..kate sy 1st pkai..tipu ke ape ni...=(
- picked my sister at Taman Ria and went to Nagoya and Kamdar together..bought purple curtain..
- went to Kedai Emas Hjh Halijah, and bought my wedding ring..hihihi..
- sent 'anak teruna orang' and went back home..alone...gigih drive malam2 sorang..da la mata cap
  ayam..huhu...



Eid - Day 6 ( Friday)

- Mr. F nk b'manja bersama mama beliau yg tercinta...so...i stayed at home..alone..
- watched TV from 7 am till 1.00 am..cter transformer  best..=P



Eid - Day 7 ( Saturday) 

- went to Kuala Perlis, took a ferry and arrived in Langkawi after 1 hour..
- went to a friend's wedding in Padang Matsirat..pengantin cantik tp mekap crack..doa banyak2 saya tak
   jadi macam tu nanti..
- went to Pekan Kuah, sopping cekelet la..hohohohoho...
- had dinner together at Kuala Perlis..terima kasih 'anak teruna orang'..belanja saya sampai perut mau
   meletop..=D



Eid - Day 8 (Sunday)

- went to work and went back home a bit early..
- went to Simpang 4 to pick mr. F..
- went to Klinik Kesihatan Simpang 4 for our HIV test..itu encik cucuk saya manyak sakit..
   itu 'anak teruna orang' cakap saya manyak penakut..cheh!!! sekeh kang...
- went to alor setar, tempah kad, tempah baju melayu..borong sakan di Borong Din..kopak beta..gaji suda
  selamat sumanya..
- bought mcD for dinner and sent 'anak teruna orang' home..



my 8 days of raya are so packed..mr. F is now back in KL..saya tinggal di Changlon kesunyian seperti biasa..oh, oh..bila mau dapat kawan baru yang kamceng sekepala..sob3..
after my busy raya, i'm now having a very...very..very baddd flu...

Oh, My Wedding 1

81 days to go...

White and soft peach for the wedding dresses...
Pastel for the pelamin and bedroom..
Colourful door gift bags..
Cute invitation card..

Hope everything goes well..
Amin, Ya Allah..

Iman

Iman is here..
I'm happy to have her..
but a little bit sad..
sad with her wrong "kad pengenalan" and the "kecomotan"..
but dont worry Iman..
I'll take care of you..
better than anything else..

Chang Loon

Been here for a week..
Everything seems so different..
New office...
New environment..
New people..

I've been trying hard to mix around..
but being the only young instructor in the building
 is not easy...

Dear Allah..
Please send me a friend..
to eat and laugh together.

(p/s : can't wait for Iman to be here..^^ )

I'm sick I'm tired, I'm scared

I'm tired..tired of travelling..
travelling from Melaka to Kuala Lumpur to Changlon to Sintok and then back again to Changlon,
continue to Gurun back to Kuala Lumpur and finally back to Melaka.
we (read me and my fiance) spent two days in car and I'm starting to get a fever..

I'm sick and I'm tired..
but worst...
I'm scared..

I'm scared...
too scared to work in a new workplace..
too scared to look for new friends..
too scared to drive alone.

I'm scared...
too scared to start a new life...
too scared to be somebody's wife...
too scared to lead my own life.

I love here..
love staying in Melaka..
love working in UiTM (* UiTM dihatiku)
love staying with the housemates (*minus that invisible one)
 and best..
I love being single (*not married) and mingle around with the girls..

I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm scared..
but I dont dare to break her heart..
just because I love staying here..

I'm sick I'm tired, I'm scared..
but, mom..
I'll do everything you want me to do..
because my life is always yours..

Moga Bahagia Selamanya

Many of my friends are getting married..
and I cant attend any of them because I'm working in "Far Away Land"..
Sad....T____T

(p/s : saya doa kebahagiaan kamu2 dari jauh..)

Diam Kau!

Diam kau dalam kubangmu,
diam kau dalam bongkakmu,
diam kau jika kau rasa itu yang kau mahu,
diam kau jika kau rasa hanya itu yang kau tahu.

Tapi yang pasti,
jangan kau endah bila aku sepi,
jangan kau endah bila aku benci,
kerana sabar aku sudah mati.

Tuding

Bila kau menuding,
Rasanya kau ampuh
Nyatanya kau rapuh.

Bila kau menuding,
Pantas tertudinglah kau,
Lantas ditudinglah kau..


Lalu apa?

Lalu henti kau menuding,
Lalu putar kau tuding mu,
Lalu patah kau tuding mu.

Lalu balik kau tudingmu,
Tuding haknya,
Tuding benarnya..

Tuding apa?

Tuding dirimu,
Tuding jiwamu,
Tuding hatimu,
Tuding jasadmu..

Lalu tuntas tuding-tuding itu,
Menudinglah diri pada yang putih,
Menudinglah diri pada yang puri..

The Sweetest Surprise

Last weekend was the best weekend ever..  *smiling form ear to ear..^^


I went out for a date and spent my special day (read it as my birthday) with him..
we had brunch together..
window shopped together..
drew batik for the first time together...

 * batik yang masih suci belum dicanting

*niat jahat memusnah kesucian batik putih
 sedang dirangka   

 *bangga berjaya memusnahkan 
kesucian batik putih 

*close-up batik putih tercemar

.

.

.

.

.

but still..
there's no birthday present for me..
he said he didn't prepare anything..
he didn't know what to buy or what to prepare..

well...
I was OK with that..
because I didn't expect anything from him..
plus, he promised to buy me  a new handbag if I want to..
and I told him, I need time..time to look for the best..  hehehehehe..=D
yes, I was looking for the best and finally I didn't find any..* selamat duit beliau..hahahaha..


late evening, he took me for dinner at Putera Ayu..
there're so many people..
and I wondered if there's any table left..
he looked so confident as if he already booked one for us..
then, I saw my dear friends, my besties..
what did they do here? I was a bit confused..

and TAAA-DAAAAA...
it's a surprise birthday party for me..
yes, I was SURPRISED...^^

Terima kasih, kamu..
buat susah2 je..
terima kasih rakan-rakan kerana sudi datang..
saya tahu kamu banyak plan sendiri di hari minggu..
terima kasih..^^

* Surprise birthday cake..
Black forest cheese cake separuh..cukup untuk 6 orang..tak membazir..^^

*terima kasih kamu..

* Aja & Babad menikmati kek lazat 

* Chadut bersama anak ikan baru??? =P

* Ummmpphhhh..sedap sgt ni~~~~!!!

* Air ni pon sedap jugak......

* Gedik sangat cacatkan gambar beliau...hahahahaha..

* Necklace yang cantik dari beliau..terima kasih kamu..^^

*Shawl dari achadut...sayang ko..^^

*luv-luv from aja..^^

* shawl from dearie housemate - cik wani..^^

*mirror-mirror from dearie housemate - cik pinkora..^^

Walaupun sedih kerana semakin tua, saya gembira punya sahabat seperti kamu-kamu semua...
dan *kamu yang satu, saya tunggu kamu membawa hajat..
Terima kasih sekali lagi...

Dan untuk yang paling istimewa..
Terima kasih mak kerana melahirkan saya..
Terima kasih mak kerana sudi tidur di atas lantai sejuk hospital untuk saya..

Dan yang paling-paling istimewa...
Terima kasih Allah S.W.T kerana mengurniakan saya hidup yang aman..

Terima kasih..=)

Moga Segalanya Diberkati

Ya-Rabb...

hamba-Mu ini mahu menghalalkan yang haram..
membetulkan yang selama ini salah..
menjadi yang lebih baik...
tapi kami hanya mampu merancang..
oleh itu, Kau perkenankanlah segalanya Ya-Rabb..
moga perancangan itu berjalan lancar tanpa halangan..
amin.....

He's not mine.

He's not mine..he's yours..I'll return him back to you soon..

Dont worry..I'll return him back, as green as he is before..

Thank you for giving me a chance to get to know him..he's a good guy, though you don't really appreciate him...and I love him as if he's mine..

Frustration

Hate being dependent to those who don't care much about me..thinking of going abroad but he and the aged parents keep me here..I've been listening to them all the time...I've been listening to them too much..and now, I'm dont know or maybe too afraid to make my own decision...

it's him!

and he is my only best friend.

I'm sorry..

I'm sorry..
I dont hate you and I dont love you..
the wound you gave me just stays there forever..

Doaku pada Ya-Rabb

Ku bermohon pada-Mu Ya-Rabb,
Selamatkanlah mereka yang aku kasihi dari segala bala dan musibah...sesungguhnya aku berserah hanya pada-Mu..Amin...

The Best MOM Ever!!!

I'm home!

I just got home...felt so happy looking at her smiling face..and her words nearly made me cried..

"Bila mak bangun tidur tiap-tiap hari, mak akan terus teringat anak-anak mak"

yes, mom..I know how much you love us..love me, your youngest daughter..I love you too, mak!!
You're is the best mom ever..

Wordless Wednesday

Ms. Shopaholic?

Am I a shopaholic?

I think I am..maybe..
I dont know whether I am a shopaholic or not..

I found this list of questions from psychcentral.com just now..if I answer 'yes' to one or more of these questions, there's a good chance that I am now suffering from "SHOPAHOLIC" disease..
so, let's find out whether I am a shopaholic or not..




1. Are you preoccupied with shopping or spending?

• Aaaa....yessss..maybe...I just cant help it..I always have something to buy in mind...and every month, I will allocate some money just for shopping..but dont worry..usually it will never exceed RM100..

2. Is your shopping excessive (200 watches, 400 pairs of shoes)?

• emmm...I think it's a no...I'll never exceed my limit...but it maybe happens sometimes..I rarely exceed the limit when I shop for clothes or shoes..but for food..*sigh...I just cant help it..whenever I go to Tesco..I'll always shop too much...I love food and cant help but to buy them..><

3. Is your shopping inappropriate (items that you don’t need)?

• Inappropriate? Buying items that I dont need?? I dont know..I think it never happen to me...saya rasa la..orang lain punya pikir tak tahu lah..huhu..though I might not using them now..I might use them in the future...yes..in the future..so, everything that I bought before is appropriate right? If I dont want them anymore, I can give them to people around me..sedekah dpt pahala what..hehe..=

4. Is your shopping uncontrolled (spending money you know you don’t have)?

• Spending money I know I dont have? Do you mean credit card? I dont have credit cards..So, my shopping is not uncontrolled...hahaha..I can only shop when I have the money..but wait, I think I do have credit card..it's my mr. Right..he's my credit card..whenever I dont have money, I'll show my 'muka comel' to him and smile..it usually works!!! and I can always pay him whenever I want..hihi..=D

5. Do you typically return, give away, or not use items you have purchased?

• No...I rarely do that...it only happen sometimes..yes, believe me..just sometimes..I'm a bit stingy when it comes to things I love..especially shoes and dresses...so, I wont give them away..and I always use them right away...but, sometimes...I do mistakenly buy shoes or tops with the wrong size..they're just too good, too beautiful to be left hidden in the shops..and, when they cant fit me, I have no choice but to let them go and give them to my closest friend or my nieces and sisters..  

6. Has your shopping become so time consuming that it jeopardizes your job, family, or pursuit of

    other life experiences?

• It's a big NO from me...I have my limit..and I hope I will always have...please pray for me.. such thing should never happen to me...

7. Does shopping leave you feeling upset, guilty or ashamed

• Of course the answer is no...having new shoes, new dresses always makes me happy..yes, sometimes I was a bit upset when I dont have much money left in my bank account..buy, still...I'm happy and I never feel ashamed of my addiction to shop..

8. Has shopping led to serious financial or legal problems?

• No, such problems never happen before..and I pray they never will... 

9. Has shopping caused you to lose a relationship?

• No...my shopping addiction never affect my relationship with those I love...^^

Now, let's decide whether I am a shopaholic or not..there's one solid 'yes' from me..=_='

well, I need to admit that I am a shopaholic..or let me try to make it more specific..I am 50% shopaholic..I am not 100% shopaholic..

Why? 

Because shopping never affect my life badly..I still have my own limit..I only shop till the last cent of my purse..not my bank account..I do have some saving though it might not be a lot..

But, still...I need to do something with my addiction to shop...I think by next month, I want to decrease my percentage of being a shopaholic..well, let's change from 50% shopaholic to 25% shopaholic..

This is a big challenge for me...I'll try my best to save more money next month..hope nothing will go wrong..=)

Wordless Wednesday

- Common sense is not meant to be taught -

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

It's January 10th,  2012...and I feel like blogging today..writing something..it has been two months since my last entry...well, I'm not a good blogger...this is my 2nd entry..no..my 3rd entry because I've deleted the 2nd one (a post bout me getting mad to an apek..well, not a good post)..

I'm not really into writing..but I think I need to start writing..

Why?
I need to write something..I've graduated last year so I dont have any assignment or term paper to be completed..and that is so not good for me because my language skills is declining...declining badly...I only mingle around friends at my level and my students..I rarely speak english..I dont listen to lectures anymore...I dont have classes to attend anymore... I need to do something...something that will help me to improve my language..maybe blogging might help..who knows..hahaha..

And now...I'm going to start writing again..dont worry..I'm not going to write and post term papers on my blog..who will read that..muahahahaha..I'll write bout my thoughts, my feelings..and maybe things I want to share with people..so, today...I'm going to write something about my new year's resolution..

Last week, I asked my students to share their new year's resolution with the class...most of them were a bit blur when I asked them to come in front and share their 2012's resolution...and somehow, most of them..yes, i repeat "most of them" didn't really know their new year's resolution and asked  their friends to suggest one..what was that?! I was a bit upset..but, well..maybe they were too nervous and couldn't think of one...finally, they did come out with some new year's resolution..some of them want to get a DL (dean list), some want to get taller, some want to get thinner and many more..

And how bout me???  Do I have any new year's resolution?? Yes, I do. I have few mission and vission to be completed within this year..2012..so, what are they?

MISSION 1

1. Master of Arts in Linguistics and English Language Studies

• I'm applying for one...and hoping to start my master in USM next September..I must have a master's degree if I want to be a lecturer..that is my dream..please pray for me..I really hope that they'll accept me there...I'm going to quit teaching in Melaka and move to Penang...I am a Kedahan, Penang is nearer to my house compared to Melaka...I wanna go home every weekend and look after my aged parents...pity them, there's only two of them living in that big house...I know my mom and dad must feel lonely without their kids and grandchildren around...my mother wants me to go to UUM..but I rather choose USM as it is more reputable and well-establish compared to UUM..again..please pray for me...I must enroll in USM within this year as I plan to finish my study before the age of 26..and I'm 24 this coming April...oh, no!!! I can't believe I'm that old..><

MISSION 2

2. Getting engaged or married to my dear Mr. Right...^^

• We've been together since 2009.. almost 3 years...and in that 3 years we've gone through many things together..my heart keeps telling me that he's the one..well, I hope it's true ..^^ We plan to get engaged this year..and get married at the end of this year or maybe early next..he's now working hard to save the money for my dowry...and vice versa..I'm working hard to spend his money for my shoes collection..muahahahahaha..just kidding dear..=P   So guys..please pray for our 'jodoh' together...Saya mahu menghalalkan hubungan yg sudah lama terjalin ini..wahhh..sangat jiwang gitu..hahahaha...

MISSION 3

3. Reading more English novels

• I've bought 6 English novels last year ( not including those I bought for literature class) and I only managed to read one of them..I mean finish reading it..the other 5 just remain "berhabuk" in my bookshelf...whenever I try to read, I'll fall asleep..please, Aini..you need to finish reading all those books..YES, YOU NEED TO..

That's it guys..I only have 3 missions for this year..3 is enough..I dont want to have too many new year resolutions and cant even achieve one of them..so..for this year..2012..I'm going to focus on this 3 goals..I'll do my best to achieve my goals...yes, I know I can!! GO, AINI..GO!! ^^