I'm sorry..

I'm sorry..
I dont hate you and I dont love you..
the wound you gave me just stays there forever..

Doaku pada Ya-Rabb

Ku bermohon pada-Mu Ya-Rabb,
Selamatkanlah mereka yang aku kasihi dari segala bala dan musibah...sesungguhnya aku berserah hanya pada-Mu..Amin...

The Best MOM Ever!!!

I'm home!

I just got home...felt so happy looking at her smiling face..and her words nearly made me cried..

"Bila mak bangun tidur tiap-tiap hari, mak akan terus teringat anak-anak mak"

yes, mom..I know how much you love us..love me, your youngest daughter..I love you too, mak!!
You're is the best mom ever..

Wordless Wednesday

Ms. Shopaholic?

Am I a shopaholic?

I think I am..maybe..
I dont know whether I am a shopaholic or not..

I found this list of questions from psychcentral.com just now..if I answer 'yes' to one or more of these questions, there's a good chance that I am now suffering from "SHOPAHOLIC" disease..
so, let's find out whether I am a shopaholic or not..




1. Are you preoccupied with shopping or spending?

• Aaaa....yessss..maybe...I just cant help it..I always have something to buy in mind...and every month, I will allocate some money just for shopping..but dont worry..usually it will never exceed RM100..

2. Is your shopping excessive (200 watches, 400 pairs of shoes)?

• emmm...I think it's a no...I'll never exceed my limit...but it maybe happens sometimes..I rarely exceed the limit when I shop for clothes or shoes..but for food..*sigh...I just cant help it..whenever I go to Tesco..I'll always shop too much...I love food and cant help but to buy them..><

3. Is your shopping inappropriate (items that you don’t need)?

• Inappropriate? Buying items that I dont need?? I dont know..I think it never happen to me...saya rasa la..orang lain punya pikir tak tahu lah..huhu..though I might not using them now..I might use them in the future...yes..in the future..so, everything that I bought before is appropriate right? If I dont want them anymore, I can give them to people around me..sedekah dpt pahala what..hehe..=

4. Is your shopping uncontrolled (spending money you know you don’t have)?

• Spending money I know I dont have? Do you mean credit card? I dont have credit cards..So, my shopping is not uncontrolled...hahaha..I can only shop when I have the money..but wait, I think I do have credit card..it's my mr. Right..he's my credit card..whenever I dont have money, I'll show my 'muka comel' to him and smile..it usually works!!! and I can always pay him whenever I want..hihi..=D

5. Do you typically return, give away, or not use items you have purchased?

• No...I rarely do that...it only happen sometimes..yes, believe me..just sometimes..I'm a bit stingy when it comes to things I love..especially shoes and dresses...so, I wont give them away..and I always use them right away...but, sometimes...I do mistakenly buy shoes or tops with the wrong size..they're just too good, too beautiful to be left hidden in the shops..and, when they cant fit me, I have no choice but to let them go and give them to my closest friend or my nieces and sisters..  

6. Has your shopping become so time consuming that it jeopardizes your job, family, or pursuit of

    other life experiences?

• It's a big NO from me...I have my limit..and I hope I will always have...please pray for me.. such thing should never happen to me...

7. Does shopping leave you feeling upset, guilty or ashamed

• Of course the answer is no...having new shoes, new dresses always makes me happy..yes, sometimes I was a bit upset when I dont have much money left in my bank account..buy, still...I'm happy and I never feel ashamed of my addiction to shop..

8. Has shopping led to serious financial or legal problems?

• No, such problems never happen before..and I pray they never will... 

9. Has shopping caused you to lose a relationship?

• No...my shopping addiction never affect my relationship with those I love...^^

Now, let's decide whether I am a shopaholic or not..there's one solid 'yes' from me..=_='

well, I need to admit that I am a shopaholic..or let me try to make it more specific..I am 50% shopaholic..I am not 100% shopaholic..

Why? 

Because shopping never affect my life badly..I still have my own limit..I only shop till the last cent of my purse..not my bank account..I do have some saving though it might not be a lot..

But, still...I need to do something with my addiction to shop...I think by next month, I want to decrease my percentage of being a shopaholic..well, let's change from 50% shopaholic to 25% shopaholic..

This is a big challenge for me...I'll try my best to save more money next month..hope nothing will go wrong..=)

Wordless Wednesday

- Common sense is not meant to be taught -

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

It's January 10th,  2012...and I feel like blogging today..writing something..it has been two months since my last entry...well, I'm not a good blogger...this is my 2nd entry..no..my 3rd entry because I've deleted the 2nd one (a post bout me getting mad to an apek..well, not a good post)..

I'm not really into writing..but I think I need to start writing..

Why?
I need to write something..I've graduated last year so I dont have any assignment or term paper to be completed..and that is so not good for me because my language skills is declining...declining badly...I only mingle around friends at my level and my students..I rarely speak english..I dont listen to lectures anymore...I dont have classes to attend anymore... I need to do something...something that will help me to improve my language..maybe blogging might help..who knows..hahaha..

And now...I'm going to start writing again..dont worry..I'm not going to write and post term papers on my blog..who will read that..muahahahaha..I'll write bout my thoughts, my feelings..and maybe things I want to share with people..so, today...I'm going to write something about my new year's resolution..

Last week, I asked my students to share their new year's resolution with the class...most of them were a bit blur when I asked them to come in front and share their 2012's resolution...and somehow, most of them..yes, i repeat "most of them" didn't really know their new year's resolution and asked  their friends to suggest one..what was that?! I was a bit upset..but, well..maybe they were too nervous and couldn't think of one...finally, they did come out with some new year's resolution..some of them want to get a DL (dean list), some want to get taller, some want to get thinner and many more..

And how bout me???  Do I have any new year's resolution?? Yes, I do. I have few mission and vission to be completed within this year..2012..so, what are they?

MISSION 1

1. Master of Arts in Linguistics and English Language Studies

• I'm applying for one...and hoping to start my master in USM next September..I must have a master's degree if I want to be a lecturer..that is my dream..please pray for me..I really hope that they'll accept me there...I'm going to quit teaching in Melaka and move to Penang...I am a Kedahan, Penang is nearer to my house compared to Melaka...I wanna go home every weekend and look after my aged parents...pity them, there's only two of them living in that big house...I know my mom and dad must feel lonely without their kids and grandchildren around...my mother wants me to go to UUM..but I rather choose USM as it is more reputable and well-establish compared to UUM..again..please pray for me...I must enroll in USM within this year as I plan to finish my study before the age of 26..and I'm 24 this coming April...oh, no!!! I can't believe I'm that old..><

MISSION 2

2. Getting engaged or married to my dear Mr. Right...^^

• We've been together since 2009.. almost 3 years...and in that 3 years we've gone through many things together..my heart keeps telling me that he's the one..well, I hope it's true ..^^ We plan to get engaged this year..and get married at the end of this year or maybe early next..he's now working hard to save the money for my dowry...and vice versa..I'm working hard to spend his money for my shoes collection..muahahahahaha..just kidding dear..=P   So guys..please pray for our 'jodoh' together...Saya mahu menghalalkan hubungan yg sudah lama terjalin ini..wahhh..sangat jiwang gitu..hahahaha...

MISSION 3

3. Reading more English novels

• I've bought 6 English novels last year ( not including those I bought for literature class) and I only managed to read one of them..I mean finish reading it..the other 5 just remain "berhabuk" in my bookshelf...whenever I try to read, I'll fall asleep..please, Aini..you need to finish reading all those books..YES, YOU NEED TO..

That's it guys..I only have 3 missions for this year..3 is enough..I dont want to have too many new year resolutions and cant even achieve one of them..so..for this year..2012..I'm going to focus on this 3 goals..I'll do my best to achieve my goals...yes, I know I can!! GO, AINI..GO!! ^^